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Chill out!

That’s right, I said chill out! Usually when someone tells us to chill out it is because some emotion is falling out of the emotional balance we call sanity. That imbalance can often become an action we could regret.

Well, I am no different and God has been telling (yelling is probably more appropriate) and teaching me to “chill out” over the last 4 weeks while I’m in Oklahoma recording.  I’ve mentioned before that I am obsessed with progression. So much so, that it can become an imbalance and possibly cause a decision I may regret.

This whole recording and not getting a job ordeal is God allowing things to progress.

Why is it so hard for me to see it?

He has provided financially for me to do this.  He will not let me get a job, not even at Dick’s Sporting Goods. Here’s proof! He has given my wife and I the grace to be apart for the last month. He is in this thing, from top to bottom.

He has allowed His lamp (Word) to show me this next step. However, I’m trying to pull out the 100 jillion jiggawatt candle power spotlight to see what is ahead. I want to see where I’m going, not where I’m at.

Although looking ahead is beneficial, it can be harmful when it becomes an imbalance. In my case, I am doing what I have known I am supposed to do for years, record a CD. If I am so worried about what job I am going to have when I get home, I will not be “chilling out” or focused on  doing what I am supposed to be doing now.

Maybe it is time we put away our 100 jillion jiggawatt spotlights and give our eyes a rest from squinting to see what we are not meant to see anyways.  Let’s pull out our lamps and see the next step and just “chill out” for a bit.

When I look at my life, God has always taken care of my wife and I when we do what He wants us to do. I also noticed that the next door opens only when I have fully walked through the previous door.

I’ll end with some words from the great Rilke to sum it up:

I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.